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  “What are you kids up to?” Thaddeus asked.

  “Abhay is going back to school,” Ravinder explained. “Now we just have to find a place for him and Priya to lay their heads.”

  “What about here?” Thaddeus asked.

  “I don’t understand. You won’t be here forever,” Abhay said.

  Ravinder smiled. “You don’t need forever. What were you thinking, Thaddeus?”

  “Well.” Thaddeus sat on the sofa beside Ravinder and shrugged. “I have a house. I have plenty of room. You could stay with me while Priya and Ravinder stay here. It wouldn’t be a permanent thing, but it would give Abhay time to save up.”

  Ravinder chewed on his lower lip.

  “I’m not asking you to move in,” Thaddeus said, holding his hands up as if in surrender. “I figured it would be a good solution for the situation we’re in.”

  “Hold on,” Abhay said. “This is too much. I will have to talk to my sister.”

  “Okay.” Thaddeus stood. “In the meantime, we should do something today.”

  “You wish to go out?” Abhay said, rising.

  Thaddeus nodded. “We should go exploring Mumbai. Tonight, we’ll sleep at my place. My back is still not happy with me.”

  “I thought for sure the pills would work,” Ravinder said.

  “They helped some, but the muscles are still tight,” Thaddeus explained. “Don’t worry. I’ll be fine. Now, where were we?”

  Ravinder grinned. “Okay. Let’s go out. Abhay, tell your sister while we change?”

  Abhay nodded and left them alone. Thaddeus instantly pulled Ravinder into his arms.

  “It would be great getting you alone tonight,” Thaddeus said, nibbling against Ravinder’s neck then shoulder. “Last night was torture for me.”

  “Is that right? How so?”

  “Having you curl up in my arms and not being able to strip you naked.”

  “Well, tonight I’ll have a special little thing for you.”

  Thaddeus smiled so big Ravinder thought it would swallow his face.

  Chapter Thirteen

  Sitting in the window seat on a plane going from Mumbai to West Bengal wasn’t what Ravinder really wanted to do. He was going to have Abhay drive until he found out that drive would take a little over thirty hours. The flight was two hours and that was much more manageable. He clasped his hands in his lap and hadn’t even realized he was squeezing his fingers tightly until Thaddeus reached over and rested a hand on his arm.

  “What’s going on in that brain of yours?” Thaddeus asked.

  It was strange. They’d only known each other for a short time, but Thaddeus could already read him like a book. He smiled and reached across to steal a kiss before slumping back in his seat and taking a deep breath.

  Thaddeus eased in for another kiss.

  “I’m nervous about what I’ll find, you know?”

  Thaddeus nodded. “I know. But you had parents who were there for you, right?”

  “Yeah.”

  “That’s a good thing. No matter what you find, it won’t detract from the fact that your parents loved you and made sure you had a good life.”

  Ravinder nodded. “True.”

  “It could always be worse.”

  Ravinder met Thaddeus’ gaze. “How?”

  “Well.” Thaddeus removed his hand from where it rested on Ravinder’s arm and laced his fingers in his lap. “They could have moved you to a foreign country that wasn’t healthy for you. Or, they could have ignored you your whole childhood, forcing you to raise yourself.”

  “Is that why you became a hacker?”

  “For the attention? I don’t know, but the professionals sure seem to think so,” Thaddeus said. “You know, I was found to be a genius?”

  “Yeah, I was reading that some place after I met you at Rajput.”

  “When they told my parents, they saw it as more proof that I was weird.”

  “Baby, I’m sorry.”

  Thaddeus gave him a small smile. “It’s okay. All I’m saying is you are who you are because your parents were amazing. I became the product of my raising—it’s not that complicated. Your parents became good people, so no matter what their past holds, you know them as Mom and Dad.”

  Ravinder nodded, feeling stronger than he’d ever felt. For that, he eased in to kiss Thaddeus just before the hostess came by with a bottle of wine. Thaddeus had wanted to charter a private jet, so first class on a regular plane was the compromise. Ravinder saw hiring a jet as a waste of money.

  When they were alone again, Thaddeus sneaked his hand under Ravinder’s blanket. He unzipped Ravinder and reached into his pants to wrap his long fingers around Ravinder’s dick.

  “Thaddeus!” Ravinder gasped. “You’re going to get us in trouble!”

  “You insisted on not getting the private jet,” Thaddeus whispered. “I want to touch you. Hold still and come for me.”

  “But we could get…damn…caught.”

  “Not if you keep quiet.” Thaddeus smiled. “Spread your legs for me.”

  Glancing around, Ravinder did as Thaddeus asked. Having his lover’s hand on him that way, sitting on a plane full of people who could all catch them was like an aphrodisiac. Thaddeus rubbed a thumb over the head of Ravinder’s dick then slowly moved the hand down the shaft to Ravinder’s balls. Ravinder had to grab the armrests as Thaddeus started stroking him. His breathing quickened, sending his pulse racing. Each time he forgot where they were and moaned aloud, he had to slam a hand over his mouth. Thaddeus smirked at him, for even as the hostesses moved back and forth between the two first class aisles, Thaddeus didn’t stop. In fact, Thaddeus tightened his fist.

  The rush of his orgasm started from the tips of his toes then slowly inched upward. When Thaddeus’ hand brushed the head of his no doubt swollen dick, Ravinder had no choice but to grind his teeth, shove back into the headrest and cover his mouth with both hands. Spurt after spurt of cum splashed from the head. He could feel it then see it soaking through the blanket. But he found he didn’t care. All he wanted was the release from what Thaddeus was doing to him. He wished he could grab the back of Thaddeus’ head and push him down on him, to suck every last drop of cum from Ravinder’s cock. But being where they were, Ravinder whimpered, settling for just a soothing hand.

  “We’ll finish this later,” Thaddeus said in Ravinder’s ear. “For now, get some sleep.”

  Ravinder couldn’t argue. He merely closed his eyes.

  * * * *

  When the plane landed, Ravinder walked beside Thaddeus. After their talk on the plane, he did feel better about what he was going to do. He gave Thaddeus’ hand one final squeeze before they met with their driver. When they told the man where they wished to go, he looked at Ravinder as if Ravinder had sprouted horns.

  But Ravinder was not prepared for what he found. The area his parents came from was nothing but a group of huts strung together across a large mass of land. The homes were built with zinc, cardboard and mud. Ravinder swallowed a lump in his throat as he tried desperately to breathe through his mouth. The stench was enough to make him throw up.

  The spot where his parents’ place had stood was empty. Ravinder glanced around trying to locate anyone he could ask. He found an old woman, using a knife to shave a piece of wood. Rubbing his palms into his thighs, Ravinder approached her.

  “Hĕlō,” Ravinder said in Marathi. “How are you?”

  “I am well,” she responded in the language. “You are foreigners.”

  Ravinder smiled.

  “What did she say?” Thaddeus asked.

  “She knows we’re foreigners,” Ravinder replied before speaking to her again. “I’m here to see about the Rajas. Do you remember them? Did you know them?”

  “Rajas?”

  “Yes. Piyoush Raja…” Ravinder added.

  “Piyoush Raja—hōya. Good man.”

  Ravinder’s heart swelled and he nodded. “Did you remember his wife?”

  The woman sh
ook her head. “After he got married, he took his family out of this place. This is no place to raise a family.”

  Ravinder translated for Thaddeus. “Dhan'yavāda. Thank you very much.”

  “That’s all you needed to know?” Thaddeus asked.

  He nodded. “Yup…” Ravinder’s voice broke as they continued through the area.

  It broke his heart, walking through the makeshift laneways. In that moment, he wanted to reach for Thaddeus’ hand. Little children charged by them, shouting in happy glee at a game of tag. They were followed closely by dogs that seemed ill, and he worried what would happen to those children.

  As they went deeper, they saw more adults sitting outside the front of their homes. Most were making jewelry. Others talked. A few times Ravinder stopped to buy some of what they were making. The colors alone made him smile and he wanted to keep a part of that around him.

  “This is where they came from, where I came from,” Ravinder whispered.

  “Yes, where you came from. This place helped to make you who you are.”

  “And who am I?”

  “A loving, smart, grown man…” Thaddeus took a breath. “My boyfriend.”

  Ravinder tilted his head. “Your what?”

  “I know, it sounds childish, but the truth is, a relationship needs a little romance, a little corny.”

  Ravinder hugged him tightly. When Thaddeus finally held him, Ravinder couldn’t stop the tears from falling. He clung to Thaddeus for his strength to keep him on his feet. Thaddeus’ arms were the only thing holding Ravinder together.

  “Come on,” Thaddeus said. “We should get you back to the car so you can get some water or something.”

  “Thank you.”

  “For what, sweetie?”

  Ravinder eased back from Thaddeus and cradled his face. “You’re a good man, Thaddeus Masterson. Even though you walk around like this big, suited, sexy beast, you’re a good man.”

  “A sexy beast?” Thaddeus kissed him. “I find I love the sound of that.”

  Ravinder smiled as Thaddeus wiped traces of tears from Ravinder’s cheeks.

  “Back to the car?” Thaddeus asked.

  Ravinder nodded.

  Chapter Fourteen

  The water in the shower wasn’t as cold as Thaddeus would have liked. But it could have been worse. While Ravinder was on the computer checking the hits to Rajput’s website, Thaddeus washed his hair, shaved and brushed his teeth. After wrapping a towel around his hips, he put on some deodorant then went downstairs. He stopped only to connect his phone to the stereo. Once he had some slow jams playing, he found Ravinder wearing nothing but a pair of pants on the deck. Thaddeus said nothing. Instead, he walked out and wrapped his arms around Ravinder from behind. Silently, he kissed at Ravinder’s neck, nuzzled the spot beneath his right ear then pulled the lobe in between his teeth. Ravinder moaned as Thaddeus rocked Ravinder slowly until Ravinder turned in his arms.

  Without speaking, Thaddeus backed them into the house and pulled the door closed. He held Ravinder to him, cradling Ravinder into his chest and rocking him to the beat of Spanish Guitar by Toni Braxton. Thaddeus didn’t know why but for some reason that song broke him then put him back together in all the right ways. Ravinder dragged his lips softly against Thaddeus’ neck, and Thaddeus was helpless to the sensations going through him.

  He couldn’t remember dancing with a lover before, but somehow, having Ravinder move against him, was heaven. Being interlaced with Ravinder, feeling his heat, listening to his breath quicken, Thaddeus knew his heart couldn’t bear it to let Ravinder go. The powerlessness of the thought made him tremble, even as he cradled Ravinder’s face and took his lips. Thaddeus sighed, plunging his tongue deeply into Ravinder’s mouth and moaning at the heat and electricity that surged through him. The kiss went from soft at first, tentative, to rough and greedy.

  Ravinder tore at the towel and Thaddeus groaned as the coolness of the room kissed his ass. He’d never known he was into getting spanked until Ravinder caressed him, stroked him, spanked him. He arched into Ravinder’s body, allowing his lover better access to his ass, even as they staggered toward the stairs. They jarred apart when Ravinder slipped on the stairs.

  Instead of crying out in pain, Ravinder looked up at Thaddeus and began removing his track pants. When they were discarded, Ravinder pushed off his boxers and began backing up the stairs by bracing his palms onto the higher steps and pushing up. Thaddeus smiled, watching the muscles tensing and unclenching. He leaned forward, resting his hands on either side of Ravinder’s body just so he could lick at Ravinder. He nibbled at Ravinder’s nipples then sucked against them until Ravinder gripped the back of his head and yelled in pleasure.

  Ravinder pushed up to another step, this time aiming his hard dick at Thaddeus’ mouth. Licking his lips wet, Thaddeus opened his mouth to take Ravinder in. He moaned as the first drop of Ravinder’s pre-cum landed on his tongue.

  “Baby.” Ravinder sighed.

  In reply, Thaddeus took up the suction, pulling the perfectly rounded head of Ravinder’s dick to the back of his throat. He gagged slightly, but when he began breathing through his nose, he could take Ravinder as deeply as he wanted. He sucked, enjoying Ravinder’s moans and the way Ravinder caressed Thaddeus’ shoulders each time Thaddeus grazed the head of his dick.

  “You’re so good at that,” Ravinder whispered.

  Thaddeus laughed softly, released Ravinder’s cock and slid his tongue down the shaft to pull the balls into his mouth. He played with them, lashing his tongue around them before dragging his mouth upward again. Ravinder was breathing hard, just the way Thaddeus loved to see him and hear the rasp of his breathing.

  “We should go to the bedroom,” Ravinder panted. “We need condoms…”

  “And lube,” Thaddeus added around Ravinder’s cock.

  But when Ravinder moved again, it was to roll over to climb up the stairs. With his ass hiked in the air, Thaddeus simply leaned forward and shoved his tongue between Ravinder’s cheeks.

  “Oh, shit!” Ravinder screamed. “You’re so—oh, yes—dirty!”

  Thaddeus growled, spread Ravinder wider and devoured him. He, plunged his tongue deeply into Ravinder.

  “I want you in my mouth,” Ravinder said. “Let me—fuck… Deeper!”

  Thaddeus didn’t stop. He was enjoying what he was doing to Ravinder way too much. In fact, he reached down to grab his own dick and stroked while sliding his tongue in as deeply as it would go into Ravinder’s ass. Ravinder whimpered. He yelled Thaddeus’ name until he simply melted off Thaddeus’ tongue.

  “You’re gonna make me come,” Ravinder panted. “But I want to taste you first.”

  Grinning, Thaddeus climbed the steps and knelt on the top stair. He arched his back, giving Ravinder full access to his ass and what lay between his cheeks. Soon, he was rewarded with the most skillful tongue that had ever rimmed him. Ravinder licked him so well that Thaddeus pressed his forehead into the floor and growled his pleasure. His hole pulsed around Ravinder’s tongue, sending wave after wave of fire gushing through him. When he reached under himself, a long trail of pre-cum slipped into his palm. He used it as lube to stroke himself, even as he rode back on Ravinder’s tongue.

  “Lick me,” Thaddeus ordered hoarsely. “Oh damn, baby, you’re making me so hard.”

  “All the better to fuck me with, my dear?”

  “Hell, yes,” Thaddeus agreed as he panted for breath and control. “We have to get to the bedroom—I can’t come yet.”

  Together, they walked hand in hand down the hall. They were barely in the bedroom before Thaddeus shoved Ravinder onto the bed then rooted around in the drawer for condoms and lube. Soon, he was dressed and turned around to see Ravinder lying on his back, his legs spread as he played with his own cock. Thaddeus couldn’t believe how sexy that vision was. He stood there for a moment, staring at Ravinder, feeling the wildness inside him grow to the point of exploding.

  He stepped forward and kne
lt between Ravinder’s thighs. He pressed two fingers covered in lube against Ravinder’s hole, worked the liquid in then found Ravinder’s entrance with his dick. “Are you ready?” Thaddeus asked. But he slammed his hips forward before Ravinder could say anything.

  “Fuck, yes!” Ravinder cried. “Give it to me!”

  With their gazes locked, Thaddeus gave Ravinder precisely what he’d asked for. He rode Ravinder hard and fast, holding his legs up by the ankles and shoving deeply into Ravinder. Hearing Ravinder gasp, pant and shout in glee only pushed Thaddeus closer to the end.

  “Right there,” Ravinder encouraged. “I’m ready.”

  Thaddeus pinched at Ravinder’s nipples. He kept his hips moving, crashing against Ravinder. By the time Ravinder stiffened and cried up to him, Thaddeus was mentally gone. His mind was one big haze. Even as he arched his back and closed his eyes tightly, he couldn’t seem to control the fire that surged from the core of his body.

  Growling, he slumped forward on top of Ravinder. When Ravinder wrapped his arms around him, Thaddeus relaxed completely, closed his eyes and sighed. “Damn, baby.”

  Chapter Fifteen

  The moment Ravinder could breathe again, he went down on Thaddeus, taking the thick, black dick to the back of his throat. It took some getting used to but he relished the challenge. Making love to Thaddeus once wasn’t enough. Ravinder now craved the man’s body like never before.

  Thaddeus clawed at Ravinder’s shoulders, pulled on his hair, arched and growled. Seeing him come apart like that turned Ravinder on. It made him want to see more, to feel Thaddeus tremble through one orgasm and into another.

  One session of lovemaking morphed into Thaddeus fucking Ravinder from behind as he shoved Ravinder into the bedroom wall. They tumbled throughout the room, knocking over vases and bottles of cologne. Soon the room was filled with the mingling of their sweat and Boss cologne. Ravinder didn’t care. Having Thaddeus’ hands on him was the only thing that mattered.